Tseng-Akera

Just as the titles says people, there is a very good chance towards the new year (if we're not all dead by the 21st lol) that one of my dreams will finally be coming true. It looks like I will be going to Tokyo! Yes I am absolutely freaking out about it. My mother in law is possibly going over on a buisness trip, but they don't want to send her alone or with a male.. so she's going to suggest I come since I have a basic knowledge of Japanese language and customs and I'm female.

I thought she was joking at first, because I told her to put me in her suit case when she went. But then it turned out she was serious! now we're going through and making the plans on getting my passport (good to have that anyway since you need it to even go to canada) and working on the company to have me go along.

I am so fucking psyched! Hubby is going to HATE me because i'm going to end up bankrupting us XD

He is officially gone, boarded the plane this morning heading for the worlds largest kitty box.

I'm actually handling it a lot better than anyone thought I would.. Sunday and Monday I would do little cries at random points. No like huge sobbing but silent cries that only lasted a few minutes until Reno made me laugh or did something stupid like hit his knee on the table. Even there on base during the four hours from when they had to bring their gear to when the buses came to take them I was doing okay. I started to cry a little bit in the car when we were just waiting to take his bags in, but I would around enough people and him in the bay that I was fine.

Some higher power must have know what was going to happen as not even ten minutes before they were to assemble, the sky just let loose. Thunder, lightening, and just a torrential downpour. That was the point I started to lose it. A few minutes before they were to leave Reno told me I should head home... I think having me stay would have been harder... But it took a few minutes to get me to leave as I had a death grip on his sling.

By the time I got to the car I was completely soaked, both flip flops had broken (thank god for years of running around outside bare foot) I was still crying when I got in the car until I realized one thing.... That SOB took both Ipod cords!!!!! >.< thankfully I still had working CD's in the car but I wanted to listen to my Ipod damn it! I ended up hydro planing the entire way home which kept my mind off everything and so far.. I really am not feeling it.. but I know it won't last long.

Got a text from him saying they are stopping in Ireland.. Great.. a shit ton of Marines stopping in the drinking capital of the world.. Why do I have a feeling the plane is going to be swerving on the flight to their next location.....  

Had the funniest thing happen though when I got home. I sat in the car a minute to send a Text to him since I haven't shut his phone off yet (it doesn't work over there.. no point paying for it) We ended up sending text to each other at the EXACT same time. His.. "I Love you, be strong for me, everything will be alright" Mine: "You took both Ipod cords you bastard!" I just about died laughing...

I'm hoping to get a new tablet once one of his first GOOD paychecks comes in, mine died which is why I haven't been working on anything lately.. Also still trying to get out of this horrible writers block >.<

I know that I have been very inactive lately, and a several people have been sending notes or comments asking how everything is going so I figured I would do just a massive update journal, so I'm not having to update everyone.

Right now to be honest I am an emotional mess. As most of my watchers know My husband is a United States Marine, and in a matter of day's he is deploying for over half a year. I can't say where he is going, when he is leaving or for how long.. but it's soon.. and for a long time. With his job, there is the chance that well.. I could lose him forever. There hasn't been a death in the company in a very long time.. but you never know, it's something I try not to think about but it's always there.

Also as my readers know I have been battling with Infertility problems for almost two years now. This month was looking so good, showing all he signs for beginning pregnant.. only to have it once more come out as negative. The whole ordeal with the testing and looking more and more like we are going to have to go the IVF route has been taking a great toll on both me and my husband. And just to rub salt in the already open wound, the same day I found out that one again I was not pregnant.. our roommate (another young marine family) brought home her newborn for the first time. I went into a mental melt down, especially when my husbands friend brought him down to show me.  in a few days I go in for more testing but I am not holding my breath on the news coming out good.

Found out today that my father is in the hospital for a possible minor heart attack and i'm currently 3 thousand miles away.

Health wise.. I have been deemed partially permently disabled thanks to Walmart and my shoulder. So while I got a nice little settlement, the restrictions placed on me is making it nearly impossible to find a job. To add too it, the knee injury that got me my discharge from the Army has gotten worse. The knee cap is out of alignment and it is swollen all the time. Many times it has given out causing me to meet my dear friend Mr. Floor on many ocassions. The past four days now it has been it's worst and I find myself having trouble going up and down stairs.

As I say.. just cut off my right side, clone my left and i'll be perfect.

Art wise, well... Tablet finally said FUCK YOU! and died, but hopefully I should be getting another one soon, we're just waiting until the deployment when the real money starts to come in.

So I'm going to be trying keep myself busy over the next few months while he is away, cons and stuff like that.. so anyone in the lower east side going to a con hit me up.

But that is my life this past week in a nutshell.. fun huh

www.anipan.com/new/art#!13562 hopefully this will turn out better than DA. but there is mine if you all want to go watch